I keep checking myself in the mirror. I tell myself that
it’s to improve my posture, but that’s only half true. The other half is to
remind myself to suck in my stomach. I’m not even overweight or big, but it’s a
scary habit I’ve had since I was 13 (I’m 20 now). I’m afraid I am (or will become) obsessed with my body image.
I don’t have a scale. I’m afraid that if I buy one, then my
dad will think I’m anorexic again. When I was maybe 14, I fainted and dad
thought I was starving myself. I wasn’t and never have.
So I don’t have a scale. Instead, I’ll measure myself to
show my progress. To clarify, I’m not necessarily trying to get bigger or
smaller, I’m trying to get healthier,
fitter. (I have to tell myself this everyday as a reminder) My measurements
are more so to see where I am and where I’ve been. This will also hopefully
help me shrink the distance between my actual and revealed (stomach sucked in)
measurements.
I’m measuring my waist and my stomach pouch, because usually
the stomach pouch determines a person’s self-image.
I’m also measuring my thighs, calves, and arms (at the
biceps) since I’m trying to add muscle there. I’d like to see if there’s any
change in the measurements as I gain muscle. I’m not sure if I’ll keep any or
all of these measurements, so we’ll just have to see where this takes me.
When I measured my actual waist size, I almost cried. It was
almost impossible not to suck in my stomach. I don’t want to be embarrassed of
my body, but sometimes (ok, most of the time) I am… But I did it, and I’m proud
of myself. I looked in the mirror (stomach not sucked in) and saw the real me
for the first time in a long time.
Waist (only 1 inch difference)
Actual: 26 inches
Revealed (sucked in): 25 inches
Actual: 26 inches
Revealed (sucked in): 25 inches
Stomach pouch (1.5 inch difference)
Actual: 31 inches
Revealed (sucked in): 29.5
Actual: 31 inches
Revealed (sucked in): 29.5
(The difference
between my waist and pouch measurements is about 4 to 5 inches because I have
little love handles. Those love handles add to the pouch measurements)
Thighs: 21 inches
Calves: 12 inches
Arms (at biceps): 10 inches.
Calves: 12 inches
Arms (at biceps): 10 inches.
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